Glass

Your lies aren’t webs, they’re more like an endless sea
in which you are so viciously drowning me.
I breathe them in but never out, each word you speak dulls my doubts.
They’re never complicated, always so simple and clear
You speak them with such honesty, your eyes ever so sincere
And although there’s that hint of wickedness behind your smirk
I no longer care
I’m far too gone, lured in by the curve of you waist, the promise of your lips and the waves of your hair
Drowning in your ocean my lungs have lost their taste for air
So I beg of you sing me a lullaby, engulf me with one more lie
Tell me to walk on glass
or throw myself in front of a train
tell me that won’t hurt and I promise you I won’t feel the pain
I’m handing you my strings won’t you be my puppet master
String me along, feed me your lies one after the other faster and faster
I’ll relish in them, and sin after sin, I’ll drink you in.

For the Love of Mars.

I’ve been here for so long, I saw the summer come and go.
I saw the flowers outside your window wither and then grow.
I waited through the rain, I waited through the snow.
But your eyes are still shut, can’t you open them for me
Because without you’re eyes, my future is blurred, I can’t see.
Open them and look
I painted the solar system on the walls of your hospital room
I painted with love, I painted away the sense of doom.
I painted the stars beside your head, And I painted the Sun above your bed.
Because you are the Sun of my universe, the centre of it all.
Please don’t let go dear, or everything will come undone, crumble to pieces and fall.
I’m begging you my love, I dont know how much longer I can last.
Without your sunshine and the warmth it used to cast.
Wake up my dear, wake up and see the stars.
Please wake up for the love of Mercury, Venues, Earth and Mars.

5 AM Thoughts

It’s 5 am and I haven’t slept
Cause I so foolishly unlocked the box where the memories of you are silently kept
Being out in the light they screamed in protest
I haven’t thought of you in a while which they so deeply detest
I walk through the memories, filled with pain
Seems like all that burning passion is now gone in vain
I stare down at us walking under buckets of rain
Where you out of nowhere decided to hold my hand,
And dance on the sidewalk
Laughing and dancing to the beat of an imaginary band,
So unaware of other people’s talk
How did something so good, end so badly
How could I have asked you to leave, and how could you’ve answered gladly
I tried to push the memories back, they’re hurting me now
I tried to stop thinking about what we were what I know lacked, I tried to stop asking how.
But the memories overpower me, with an accusatory tone
Stating the harsh truth, of how I am so alone
Pushing me until I picked up the phone.
It’s 5 am and I’m dialing your number, a number that I can’t forget
The foolishness of the act is lost of me, I’m wondering if your voice is still like I remember.
So relieved to hear you pick up the phone, except it wasn’t you, unlike me it’s 5 am and you’re not alone.

Charade

Ever feel misplaced?
As if someone threw you in their place
Took away your memories left only…  His body… His face…
All traces of emotional attachment forever erased.
Ever feel confused?
As if your life is being misused
And your body is being abused
With this unnatural situation
Of being an addition to some one else’s life
It comes to a point where everything they say feels like an accusation
Do they ever get tired?
Of living this pretense of a life
Constantly feeling like liars
Do  they ever get tired?
Of trying to keep up with their own lives
Trying to reach higher
Do they ever feel lost, confused and tired.
Cause god knows that’s how I’m feeling… Simply. Emotionally. Tired.

I Believe

I believe that there’s a bigger picture that I can’t see
And what I’m going through is just a chapter in my destiny
That in order to feel a sense of belonging later lonely now I must be
You may live for the moment but I live for what follows
Thinking of the future brings me hope and hope triumphs sorrow
So what were you asking?
How am I today?
How about you ask me tomorrow

Anything for You

I have been trying to write for about 2 months the only things I could write were bits and pieces of stuff that doesn’t make sense.
Until today I hope this makes sense:

My mind is filled with thoughts of you
Thoughts of me
Questions about who I’m suppose to be
For you to look to make you see
That this is true I’m who you want me to be
I’ll do my hair the way you like
I’ll shave my legs I’ll even bike
I’ll learn to bowl
I swear I’ll strike
I’ll listen when you speak
And if you have a broken heart I’ll fix the leak
You’ll be proud
I know you’ll love me I just need to be found
So look at me
Set me free
Cause I honestly believe
To my happiness you hold the key

Yet Life Goes On

There’s you… then there’s me
There’s that whole society that can’t let us be
There’s love and hate
Then there’s fait
There’s that moment that came a little too late..
There’s sunshine there’s rain
There’s happiness then there’s pain
There’s confusion followed by hope
There’s that split second you’re about to give up but then you cope
There’re chances that turn to be let downs
There are smiles that turn into frowns
Cause there you are... And here I am
Farther from translating this than I had ever planned
There’s you … then there’s me
There’s that whole society that wont let us be

Heart Breaker

It was a picture that I wanted to share
A picture of what my life would look like with you in there
I guess we had different plans
I chose you and you chose not to care
So you moved on and me, well me even the simplest smile I can’t bare
Seems unfair
I gave my self and took the fall
Not knowing that you didn’t care you didn’t care at all
And what do you have to say?
Nothing ever since, not even I’m sorry or are you okay!
Now I’m not sure what I’m suppose to do
When all I ever wanted was to be with you
But really what CAN I do?
Other than pickup the pieces while you break someone else’s heart too

Better Than Here

What if a breeze blew through me and took away my soul
Would anyone notice or would everything go on like nothing happened at all
Would u know that I was missing?
Would you remember when you used to say I’m your blessing
Would it take me to a better place?
Or will I be forced to witness the troubles I use to face
May seem horrible but anything is better than now
When I’m breathing and wondering why and how?
I’m sure where ever the wind will blow and where ever it already blew
Its better than here where I want but can’t be with you

The Rain

This is something I wrote a while back :

Stay by my side
We’ll dance our way through the pain
Cause with weather like that it’s hard to hide
it lures us out so all of our hiding goes in vain
Let it wash us from all our sins let it rain
Let’s walk under the sunless cloudy sky
Let’s pray that we’ll never have to say goodbye
Let the wind blow in our face
And the cold makes us embrace
What we are afraid of.. love in this case
So as we lay let us pray that nothing will ever change
Let us make this our place
But we both secretly know
That eventually we’ll have to let go
When the weather returns to sunny and dry
That’s when we’ll have to say goodbye